Things I Don't Understand

01 04 2013

I truly just don't understand people.

I don't understand why are you a Dr. if you don't want to help people? Is it just the love of money?

I don't understand the cruelty in this world. It is just too much for me to grasp. The older I get the more I see how things really are in life. It is just so dishearten.

I especially don't understand how people who in a higher position and take advantage of that position and for some reason it really pushes my buttons.

I don’t understand why I didn’t become a lawyer.

I don't understand things that people do to animals and children it is just beyond my comprehension.

I don't understand the people that are put in the position to help a child with mental disorders push the child and families away.

I don't understand why a therapist told me that since I didn't die after my son with a mental illness tried to kill me meant that my son's prognosis is good. Had I died then no one would want to help him. Forget that he did the act he did to try accomplish an outcome of killing. But because I didn't die my son does not need mental help services. Did I mention my son was 9 years old at the time and is only 10 years old now?

I don't understand why the people at the residential treatment center stood by as a 14 year old raped and beat my child repeatedly. They did nothing.

I don't understand, why not even the Phoenix police, CPS or the board of mental health did not even slap the hand of the residential treatment center.

I don't understand if I so much as look at my child with a frown I am deemed as a abusive parent by school teachers or others.

I don't understand why I am blamed for my child's mental illness when I was not the one who gave birth to him or drank and did street drugs while in utero. I am not the one that left him alone for hours on end with dirty diapers, laying in his own urine, hungry.

I don't understand, why people who work with special needs kids don't understand their unique dynamic.

I don't understand how people can fight for gun control and blame guns for violent acts and not mental health. 

I don't understand why after all the violent acts that have happened because of a mentally ill person there is no talk of bettering the mental health services and industry.

I don’t understand why kids that need help, that were abuse and neglected are treated as defiant children rather then children who are  mentally ill. They are not mental ill of their own doing, they are mentally ill because our society allows parents do abuse drugs, alcohol and continue to have children even after the children are born drug addicted. Our society allows it to continue.

I don't understand why people don’t understand the devastating affects on a child entire life when born with Fetal Alcohol Syndrome (FASD) or other drugs in their system.

I don't understand why people are surprised when the unthinkable happens.

I don't understand why this is allowed.